This is a love confession, if you don't like girls talking like this.. ı strictly recommend you don't read this..

today, ı realized sth that ı wish i hadn't..

ı met this guy this summer.. he's working at a bar that me and my friends went while we were vacationing.. and we hit it off right away.. we had such good times ).. even now when i think about those days my day lightens up .. there was this one problem; he had to stay there and ı had to leave.. so before it's my time to leave, i decided not to think about him that much.. and i didn't.. but now, i really miss him and our days together.. ı don't know why but there's sth about him that attracts me ..

my longest relationship lasted 10 months and i was feeling the same about that guy as i'm about this new guy now.. My point is that he struck me like a sudden lightning.. I had no idea where it came from and it was so powerfull that ı can't recover from it..

I've never understood the effect of guys like him.. Why do we as girls get addicted to them?.. İs this what they call 'love' ?..

I really don't know anything about this feeling.. I hope in time it doesn't get worse..